I'm a control freak. I like to be in control of my life and everything that happens to me. Of course, this doesn't really work too well. Over the last year, I've felt that I need to surrender my life to God and that part of the reason I've been struggling is because I'm trying to do things on my own power and in my will and not His. This am when I prayed I was asking Him to help me to surrender my will to Him.
He gave me two scriptures:
"Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and He will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Grieve, mourn, and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and He will lift you up." James 4:7-10 NIV
"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's might hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast your anxiety on Him because He cares for you. Be self controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings. And the God of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will Himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To Him be the power for ever and ever. Amen."
I Peter 5:6-11 NIV
I was also reminded of a song, "Give It All Away" by Aaron Shust
"Search my heart, search my mind, search my soul, make me clean, make me new, make me whole. All of my plans, all of my dreams, I lay them down before Your feet. All of my time, all that was mine I now submit to your design because You are the one and only one who dared to give it all away for me. You dared to give it all away for me.
You are my strength, You are my God, You are my King, You make me laugh, You make me dance, You make me sing. All of my plans, all of my dreams I lay them down before Your feet, all of my time, all that was mine, I now submit to Your design, because You are the one and only one who dared to give it all away for me. You dared to give it all away for me. You gave it all away.
everything inside everything outside I give it all away, You never change you rearrange my heart more everyday, all of my plans, all of my dreams, I lay them down before Your feet, all of my time, all that was mine I now submit to your design because You are the one who can make my life complete, you are the One who can give light to my feet, because You are the one and only one who dared to give it all away for me.
Search my heart, search my mind, search my soul..."